During our first month in the US, a beloved uncle informed me about the three stages I might feel or experience as an Immigrant.
First Stage is the WOW stage. Everything is new. Everything is wow and everything is unique. He is absolutely right. I get to see new technologies on the road, in school and in different establishments. Discipline is another wow thing I have observed especially with regards to traffic enforcement and government rules and policies. The people are generally good and they say "hi", "hello", "how are you doin'?" even if they don't actually know you. People are so grateful that they always say "thank you" or "I appreciate...".
Second stage is the depression stage. This is what I feel whenever I miss my Nanay (mother), my siblings, my niece, nephews and my friends. Sometimes I feel I know nothing and feel so insecure. Also I have encountered racism when I encountered a customer when I was still working as a Cashier in a Retail store. My uncle was right when he said I will feel different in many ways, that I will be afraid to do this and to do that. In many times, I am curious what to eat, what to say and how to act.
It is just hard to think and accept that sometimes your kapwa Filipinos puts you down or do not support you. Sad to say that's the bad attitude crab-mentality some Filipinos possess. I don't want to think it's because of envy but I hear this envy attitude with the Filipinos I meet whenever they advise me to be careful in dealing with other envious Filipinos.
Third stage is the live-again stage. Start a new life and a new career. No Work, No Money! I have taken free Computer classes to meet new people, to learn and to enhance skills. I really wanted to have my own business but I still don't know how to start plus there's no capital. So work, work, work... For now, my IT Internship has just ended so need to find another work. Hopefully I can find one as soon as possible.
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